At least for a while until Late October/beginning November-ish. Some of my followers know this about me but for those of you who don’t, here it goes. I’ve battled with an eating disorder for a very long time. I’ve been in and out of treatment programs/facilities. I’ve had more downs than ups and it’s time for me to completely change my life around and start what I hope is my last journey to recovery. Currently, my stats are : 5’8, 94.2 pounds with a BMI of 14.3 approximately. The thing is , I’ve always been skinny my entire life, part genetics/ part high metabolism. But somewhere along the road, something happened and I went downhill and at a point, I needed a feeding tube and ended up in the hospital for months. This time around, I want to be better, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I want to be FIT and healthy. I don’t want to play hide and seek with my period anymore. I don’t want to comb my hair and watch them fall out in chunks. I don’t want to wince in pain when people grab me just a little too hard. I don’t want my bones protruding from my clothes. I don’t want to wear shorts during the summer and hear people say “ew”. I don’t want people to look at me and ask me if I’m hungry. I don’t want to be flat chested. I want my breasts to be as full as they once were. I want to look at myself in the mirror and see curves.. This is going to be hard but I am ready for the challenge.
My treatment program officially starts on Monday and although I am bummed out by the fact that I’m leaving my family, friends, blog/ online community, I am happy that I’ll get the help I need. So I sincerely wish you all the best and I hope you guys stay around because I’ll love to see you all when I return.